birthday jitters.:))

okay. i know i only have twelve days before i officially turn older. honestly, i am not excited. who would be? im not gonna turn 18, and come to think of it, its just going to be an ordinary day for me. aside from that, the ones digit in my age would just change to 5. its not so remarkable if you ask me.

but, the moment i learned that something special was going to happen, i felt even more depressed.

last night, my eldest brother called. he said that he was going to come home for my birthday. that was good. but, he was going to invite some friends (colleagues) over. that was bad. my mom told him that we are going to prepare something special for them. that's okay.

then it hit me. we were going to have a special day not for me but for my kuya's friends. they are going to be invited to my party, but i won't invite any of my friends. what a birthday.

my mom offered me a chance to invite friends, but as i was already preoccupied with the thought, i said thanks, but no thanks. i reasoned out that our house wasnt as accessible as other places, and that coming here would be a hassle for the people that i'd invite. aside from that, some friends of mine wouldnt be in davao that time, so...

if i said yes, then that could be the first time that i'd actually invite people over. unfortunately, i didnt.

amidst all that, i only have one birthday wish.
i wish that everyone who ever knew me would greet me.
that's all.:)